Unwilling or Unable??****updated****

I updated this post to include my Wordless Wednesday....which happens to be very WORDY!

Notice anything new about Leanna???

She NOW has BANGS!!!!........and her shirt says it all:)

I LOVE BANGS:)
on my little girls...

(all my sweet China dolls always had bangs as wee'ones)
I finally cut them when Tommy was running Serena to Chinese School...
we had talked about it...and he was in agreement..it was time our LeeLeeBee saw with out looking thru a forest of hair!!!

On to my original post:

Unwilling or Unable?
That is the question that burns in my brain...

I have not blogged in a bit or at least I have not blogged about what truly lies on my heart.

Is it because I am unwilling or unable????

I am still not aware of what the answer clearly is..

What I can tell you is that I felt a prompting to pull up my blog today and do some reading.

I examined the updated blogs on the right side of my screen and I felt a gentle prodding to read two very important updates.

In the end I know that this came from above!

HE is always calling..me...

HE is ever so gently trying to recapture "me", which honestly is my pray..EVERYDAY....

Return me to that person that I once was...

The persons that fervently prayed,

that fervently preached,

that fervently loved....

The person that ALWAYS put the LORD first BEFORE all things..

Now, it is my husband whom reminds me we MUST go to MASS on Sunday.

I give the excuse to myself(which is only partly true) how hard it is to go to mass with Leanna..

because I end up chasing her around the entire time...but it is MUCH more than that.

IF it was not for my husband and my kids(especially my big 2) and the support of some very dear people....

I think that...

oh...

lets be honest...

I do not know what I think...and that is the problem...

but, I do KNOW I would be worse off...
Most days I feel like I am drowning....
Some days I rely solely on Tommy to carry me...and the kids...

Caring for this household is overwhelming me in a way I just can NOT put into words.

I feel guilty for being overwhelmed and immensely sad that I am overwhelmed....

It is just that I am so tired of:

-that darn important piece of paper ALWAYS disappearing..

-so tired of always playing CATCH-UP

-so tired seems to be how I want to begin every sentence...

and perhaps it is just b/c I know the demolition of my home(the inside) and the rebuilding it(if we go thru with it) will wreak havoc on our very tight schedule and perhaps I just have a bad taste in my mouth from all the projects we previously embarked on...

IT IS SO MUCH WORK TO WORK on your home, care for your family and GO TO WORK...

I just pray that the LORD leads my family to him,

HE finds a way to touch my heart and make "me" his again...

I thank him for giving me a man(Tommy)whom I thought would never love God in the way

I wanted him to.....

than the good LORD transformed him

and is allowing Tommy

to be the one

who helps to lead me back

to OUR LORDS loving heart...

It is not as if I stopped loving the LORD...

it is....I am not sure...
perhaps just tiredness.

Hope you all had a Happy Halloween...

I know we sure did....
Filled with a baseball game, soccer game, trick or treating, Celeste and I making 10 pizza pies and 2lbs of pasta for "our" company.

Celeste will always be the best in the west...and I do solemnly swear if having a teenager is like this..THEN BRING ON THE TEEN YEARS...
I LOVE'em.

Enjoy the pics...
and until next time...prays, prays, prays and more prays..

TJ(skull man) and Serena(little Mermaid) MY little mermaid
My very own giraffe (aka LeeLee Bee)

TJ with his mask on in the March of Dimes Parade @ his school.Hippie girl(aka Antoinette) Yes..my 15 year old girl STILL trick or treats!! Celeste and girlfriends....

My crew.... My crew with my lovely neices... Cousins Emily and Megan....
Cousin Monkey(aka Vincent)
Monkey boy and Giraffe girl trick or treating... That would be Fred Flinstone(aka uncle Danny), Popey(aka Tio) and Captain America(aka daddy and the love of my life:)) Aunt Kristine with a very serious and TIRED Leanna:)

NOTICE HER BANGS:)))))))

With Much Love,

MIA....missing in Action!

I have been unable to blog for a bit.....I am STILL under-the-weather.....and I am STILL caring for SERENA whom has the same horrible cough as me....and LeeLee and her CONSTANT runny nose is not helping either..(although I think that is due to teething.. she is cutting 2 more bottom teeth)

I honestly have not had much energy to do anything....I try to blog at work or when LeeLee is napping in the morning and since I have been napping as well....no such luck to put up a post...

This post is actually cutting into my nap time....lol....

Hoping to feel better soon....Enjoy the pics in the mean time....

and for your legging delight....I posted many more pics of her cute baby legs...

Leanna looking all sweet....better get a good look b/c she does NOT stand still for more than a SEC.
Happy Leanna:)

Serious Leanna:)

Serena lying down in LeeLee Bee's stroller b/c she is not feeling well..
I told her not to come to TJ's ballgame..but she just wanted to come so bad...

Leanna at TJ's ball game...

My terror trying to climb onto the ballfield...

Her mischeivous smile....

Again...trying climb onto the field...

Stay Still...PLEASE....

****Update**** TJ will play in the winter league and we will send him for private lessons as well...

*******Plus...picture this****

Last inning, last out...pop up to outfield.......my son runs as hard as he can...catches it with his hand twisted backwards....and HELD ON TO IT...for the third out....

It brought the crowd to their feet in a loud APPLAUSE....

OH MY....my lil'boy...

<3 I HEART Friday<3

Friday Fragments and Favorite Friday Fotos are here again..

Yippee....

Friday has become one of my very favorite days of the week to blog...

It allows me to briefly describe the week we had....which, I so love doing because it allows you to review and either savor the great moments or make a plan to improve on the not so great ones..lol..

and BELIEVE me I had a not so great moment on Wednesday....

Monday..

of course was work for me...until midnight....

It was the end of a very LONG work week.....that began on Friday and continued until that Monday..

The biggest problem with it was that I was sick...(I am still sick...one week later..boohoo)..

If you heard my voice you might just die from laughter....it sounds as if I swallowed a frog!

Tuesday...

is my running around day....

it toots to the tune of....pick TJ up from school...FORGET his CCD books...head back HOME to pick them up..bring him to religion RATHER LATE....pick up Antoinette from guitar lessons....

Make some type of plans for her to get to soccer practice because I HAVE NOT mastered the art of being in two places at once....yet....

but, OH HOW I TRY...

Sealed the deal on those plans...arranged for her to be dropped off and picked up from soccer practice by one of the other moms from our circle of parents whom are SO KIND TO ME AND MY CREW..

Pick TJ up from religion...pick Celeste up from the transit center so, she could avoid her bus transfer...

Finished up dinner and HW..to which my hubs did the religion run with Antoinette...

PHEW..are your eyes bleeding from that read...I know my head is just hurting thinking about it..

Wednesday....

Ran errands....with Tommy....(more like shopped a bit for Serena and myself..(yay))

Rested a wee bit....

made dinner...

did HW with TJ

and I am sad to say I was bit less than patient......

discovered Serena's Chinese book was missing..

and I kind of totally had a melt down....

Sorry to report for a brief moment I did NOT use my indoor voice...

Rushed and got TJ ready for baseball game.....

Ahh..baseball...sweet relief...

Thursday......

Cleaned, cleaned and cleaned some more..

Tried to rest, but of course my sweet, sweet terror, ahem sweetie decided to get into EVERYTHING today....

Nap? anyone hear that??...the sandman beckoning Leanna to take 2 naps today before her momma CRIES.....

While on the phone with Tommy a beep comes in...

A:Tom hold on..

Tom: OK..sure

A:Hello...

The caller was TJ's baseball coach informing me of a few things...

A:(Click back over to Tom)

Tom guess what?

Tom:What?

A: OUR SON has been drafted...

to which we both giggled...

See there is a winter league...and his coach called me to tell me he WANTS TJ to play with him on his winter team...he then insructed me to keep it on the QT because he is not taking the whole team....

I guess that is how you feel when your kid gets drafted....lol..

purely happy....

Not sure if we will accept...because we sit somewhere between letting him play on the winter league and getting him instructional help so he can further grow as a ballplayer..

DECISIONS...DECISIONS....

Friday....

I will make it simple....HI-HO, HI-HO..it is off to WORK..I GO....

Enjoy some of my FAVORITE FOTOS;)

Leanna exhibiting all her sweetness..

LeeLee showing a bit of her naughtiness...
What the hay is that she is biting on?

Serena....

With Much Love,

Thankful on this Thursday...

simply.......

for my husband....

My heart and thoughts are with you today Tommy....as always:)

My love for you is deep and true

No matter what you do I'll always be there for you

No matter where you go I'll always be there beside you

Till the day I die

My love will always stay true to you

“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for each other.” (1 John 3:16)

Visit here and here to list what you are thankful for on this Thursday..

With Much Love,

Fantabulous Fotos:)

The Blog Hop theme for this coming Monday is "FANTABULOUS FOTO FREE FOR ALL".

This weeks themed reminded me of my last post for last weeks blog hop...but, you all know how much I just LOVE pics....

The next three photos are fantabulous because they are of grandparents with their grandkids..one of the greatest gift a child can give their parents. Grandma and Serena.

PoPo, Ahyeah with Leanna when she was "brand new"
and being welcomed into OUR Lord Family!

Grandpa with Leanna...this pic is so special..it was before he got sick.

Antoinette and LeeLee...sleeping..

Anty took care of her so her momma could rest b/c I was so very sick.

Serena getting her zzzzzzzz's on the recliner..

3 of the 5 getting their zzzzzzzzzzzzz's...that is how my crew hangs.....can't seem to get enough of one another...sometimes a good thing and sometimes a bad thing..lol..

Leanna with those silly glasses AGAIN..can NOT seem to get enough of them..lol...


Posing SISTERS..for LIFE...

Leanna...just because I <3> Leanna doing..what I do NOT know..

Taken by one of her siblings when I was at work...



With Much Love,

All my NOT me's..

Today is the day where we unabashedly admit to all the little nothings we so did NOT do...

So if you're in the confessing mood go ahead and click here and play along...and if your not in a confessing mood..still click here and get a giggle at all the things that did NOT happen to any of these mommas..

1)I so did (NOT) truly love reading all of your comments on how busy and crazy my week was as stated in my Friday Fragments.

2)I so did (NOT) truly dream of being able to relax after that crazy week...but, the reality of it was (NOT) that I worked 3pm until 12am on Friday and return back to work Saturday morning at 8am, then run errands after work @4pm..followed by 5pm mass...then back at work again 7am on Sunday. This was so (NOT) how I spent my time...and if (NOT) to make matters worse..I was (NOT) so sick while I did all of this....

3) I am (NOT) the luckiest gal in the world..to have a husband who handled all other matters during this crazy weekend...allowing me to sleep when I can and cooking me soup on Saturday and Sunday because I was so very SICK..and DEPRESSED AT THE THOUGHT OF BEING SICK!!!..I am so (NOT) lucky..NOT me..nope..

4)I am (not)dreading going to work again tonight with my runny/stuffed nose and my aching throat...NOPE not me...nope..

5)I am (not) feeling ever so tired..nope not me....and I do NOT mean sleepy tired...I mean just mentally and physically drained...I am (not) in awe how people can run a household with even MORE kiddies...and not feel so drained...

6)I so did (NOT) stay up watching the Yankee game because my son has me eating, drinking and breathing baseball..nope not me...and I did (not) watch some random game with him last night with teams we do NOT even know..just so we could WATCH BASEBALL...to which Serena so did (NOT) say..I hate baseball....you think she has had enough with the baseball????

7)I so DID (NOT) TRY TO CONVINCE her to play softball instead of dancing..I am (not) so danced out after spending so MANY years and MONEY on dance with my two big daughters...nope not me...what kind of mother tries to persuade their child into a different hobby...certainly NOT I...

8)I was so NOT a grump last night..for I am NEVER grumpy.....and it was not me at King Kullen last night with all 5 of my crew trying to pick up some supposed items that were supposedly on sale...I say supposedly b/c it was so NOT a sale...

anywho, it was not me who came home to discover that LeeLee had thrown in a package of $7.99 razor blades...to which I almost grumped out..."Now I have to go ALL the way back and return them"....."and who in Gods creation loaded that on the conveyer belt"..ahem Celeste or Antoinette...geesh...I so am going back to return those..I can think of a hundred other ways I would like to spend 8 bucks. This so DID NOT happen to me.

9)It is NOT me who bought Leanna the cutest little outfit...and it was NOT me who snuck this beautiful polka dot dress with matching tights into the cart...nope not me...it was that other mom who is addicted to cutesy little girlie girl outfits..for my sweet terror...ahem..I meant HER sweet terror..lol...

10)Finally, it is NOT me who went to dress Leanna today and decided it was way too cold to wear a pretty cutesy outfit...and it was NOT me who reached in the back of her closet and grabbed what I thought was sweats...and retrieved an outfit..that had SUCH sentimental value...and ol'outfit from my OLDEST DAUGHTER that was bought for her by a family member..it amazes me how after all these years I still can rememeber who bought them what...AMAZING...if only I could remember where I put TJ's music book that he needs for school TOMORROW..if only I felt well enough to look for it..lol...

That's all folks...

With much Love,

A week in Review:)

Friday Fragments are here again along with some of my favorite fotos for the week.

This week kinda went by so FAST. I worked Monday until somewhere into the wee hours of the morning...leaving at 11pm like I am scheduled to do is becoming an impossibility..

Anywho, Tuesday was one busy day for me...I picked up TJ from school after his 37 and half minutes program finished..RUSHED him to religion class, which finished at 5pm...rushed to PICK HIM UP and RUSHED to get him to his VERY COLD baseball game....

Can anyone say exhaustion? This was after I made chicken cutlets, noodles and a vege for dinner sometime in the afternoon so, that my son could eat on his trip from religion(CCD) to his ball game. He had a VERY INTENSE game where he did well(he even pitched), but I was even more proud of him for being able to cope ..IT WAS COLD...bitterly cold and he dealt with it unimaginably well...My boy,my boy is ONE OF THE APPLES OF MY EYE{smile}

His green,brown, orange eyes can turn me to mush..lol..

After his game..HOMEWORK TIME..which we did not begin until 8pm at night...yikes....

On Wednesday...needless to say I was burnt out...so a trip to see my mom and dad did NOT happen..boohoo....I needed to seek rest and relaxation in the sanctity of my house...I STAYED in all day...Don't you just need one of those days now and again?

I think I went to bed by 10pm..which IS SO EARLY for me....

On Thursday....I spent the day with Tommy...spending some much needed quality time and running some much needed errands.....

(isn't it funny how when your married and raising a family..even food shopping together is quality time..lol..)

{big smile}
We were pricing kitchen cabinets, granite counter tops..etc....Followed that with food shopping at BJ's and Costco...

Another late night for TJ and his HW...I HATE IT..but, my son is coming along ever so nicely in his studies. On Thursday, his teacher called me to tell me what a little gentleman my son is...what a nice thing to say...about my sweet, sweet TJ...She also told me how HARD he is working in school...Guys, can YOU SEE that? DO YOU SEE THAT? The light at the end of the tunnel!!!I can see it flickering and I am REJOICING....
....now only if I could find my sanity to deal with my sweet, sweet LeeLee...ahem I meant MY TERROR....ahhh, but she is still so sweet...and DELICIOUS....

Hope you enjoyed a brief glimpse into our crazy week:)

DO NOT MIND Leanna's CHOCOLATE FACE..told ya she was so sweet:) MY HAPPY GIRL:)
Playing with HER COMPUTER.. MY ever sweet, KIND, helpful Celeste..who is absolutely and utterly beautiful on the outside..but more importantly even more beautiful on the INSIDE...
Visit here and here to play along as well.

With much Love,